Alright, well, welcome to my first post. Let me give you a
little bit of my history, and why I’ve decided to start this blog.
I’ve always been
pretty active. I was very shy in middle school and high school so I never got
too involved with sports there. I was on the tennis team my freshman year, and
I did track for about a week until I quit. I loved running and working out on
my own though. Over the years my love for it just grew. I felt so free when I
would run. I loved going to the gym, because I felt like I belonged there.
Running and lifting weights were just what I loved to do. When I turned
twenty-one, I left to serve an eighteen-month mission for The Church of Jesus
Christ of Latter-day Saints in Riverside, California. We kept to a very strict
schedule, so there wasn’t a lot of time to spend in the fitness area of my
life. Which was fine. I had other priorities. When I returned home in June
2013, I did my best to get back into shape. It took me a while, but that’s
okay. We’re looking for progress here, not perfection. Anyways – flash forward
to Spring 2015, I was back on track with my fitness. I had decided I would
pursue an exercise science degree. I was studying to take my personal trainer
certification exam. It all seemed good.
For some known reasons, and other unknown reasons, in Spring
2015 I fell into a deep depression. I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety
most of my life, so it wasn’t completely new to me. Most of it had subsided
though, so this really came out of nowhere.
I don’t want to delve too deep into what I was going through,
or how I was feeling, but with those feelings came a lot of Taco Bell. And
ice-cream. And Coke. And forget about making it to the gym, or going for a run,
I was doing good to get out of bed in the morning. As you can imagine, I
started gaining little weight. Then I kept gaining weight. Then I became more
depressed and had more anxiety.
Fall 2015 semester started. Here I was, no longer exercising,
no longer paying much attention to what I was eating and yet, I was a certified
personal trainer and pursing an exercise science degree.
I was so lost, and so confused. I didn’t recognize myself in
the mirror anymore. I lost all interest in things I once had such a great
passion for. I had developed so many unhealthy habits. I knew I needed to
change and get back on track, but it was so difficult.
At the beginning of this year I started going to the gym
again. Later on I started running again. But it’s been up and down and up and
down. Back and forth and back and forth.
A couple of weeks ago, I finally said enough is enough. I’m
ready to make this change, and achieve these goals I’ve had for so long.
I had a blog a few years ago and I really enjoyed it. I
thought I would start this one to track my progress and share my journey with
everyone. I have some big goals I want to accomplish the next few months, and I’m
excited to share that with you. I’ll make a separate blog post about what they
are.
So, that’s me and that’s why I’m here. I want to put my
journey out there. I know I’m not alone with my struggles of depression and
anxiety, and I want other people to know they’re not alone either. It’s okay to
not be okay sometimes. I want to encourage other people to live a healthy
lifestyle. You’re going to get a little bit of everything from this blog. My
main focus though, is just living healthy mentally, spiritually, and
physically.
Let's have some fun with this!
